I’ve been away for a while. It’s a myriad of reasons, all good, but I am just going to stick with the big ones.
So I have been unwell, u probably figured that out by now. Well, it has not been the typical crisis kind. Honestly, at this point I’ll much rather have a crisis. MIGRAINES!!! They have been my headache for the past six months or so, literally. It’s a FREAKING STATUS MIGRAINOSUS, well, in my opinion.
Migraines are not new to me. I have had them from as far back as high school, when they were few and far between. In the past two years however, the migraines have increased in intensity, prompting a visit to a neurologist, and of course, subsequent visits, a brain MRI, daily migraine prophylactic medication and in the past two months migraine treament medication.
The migraines have only gotten worse over time, and leave me incapacitated with the associated dizziness, photophopobia, aura and the like. Somehow, I am still supposed to be in school and functioning. It’s so terrible now, my migraine prophylaxis dosage has been doubled, and I am still unwell. I am only functioning at about 30% capacity and even worse I have daily headaches. It is abnormal. Nobody is supposed to have headaches everyday. Really, what is going on? It is amazing I am still able to pass my exams.
Basically, I’ve been so unwell, I barely have enough time for school work and sleep thus it’s been really difficult trying to make time to blog.
In addition to this, my school workload has drastically increased. It has “a little” something to do with the obs and gynae rotation, which by the way I think is a major contributor to the increased rate of migraines.
I would do the research, but with my reduced functioning capacity and increased workload, I really don’t have the time, at least not now. So, I want to know, do you guys suffer migraines too, because I know a number of persons living with sickle cell disease and we all seem to have migraines. Curious, isn’t it?
Other reasons why I have been MIA. Well, logistical issues I really don’t want to discuss because I’ll probably get another migraine just talking about it. Suffice it to say, internet access in my hostel is pretty much non-existent now and typing on my iPad mini is simply uncomfortable, plus I am having challenges with some of the typing settings on the app. Shall I go on?
I am still working on everything. First I need to get rid of the migraines and get back to full functioning capacity then I can add on the seemingly extra-curricular activities. IT IS AMAZING, (ACTUALLY FRUSTRATING). MY COLLEAGUES ARE TRYING TO GET DISTINCTIONS OR CREDITS OR AT LEAST PASS, AND ALL I AM TRYING TO DO IS, NOT GET A FREAKING HEADACHE. JUST THAT. I need to make a judgement call whether to study or sleep when I know I should be studying just so I don’t have a headache later. it’s absurd. This my current EXISTENCE, IT CERTAINLY ISN’T LIVING. Maybe medicinal marijuana should be my next option, WHAT IS THERE TO LOSE, REALLY?
Do let me know how you deal with your migraines because I really need the help. We could all learn.
What’s that I usually say when I get here? Not feeling it today. #peace